Crappy writing. Read it anyway.

Do we get everything we deserve? Or let me put it this way, do we get everything we think we deserve? Does good always win? Does evil always lose? Does the power of goodness over evil prevail? I don't know. What I do know,though is life isn't fair. Of course not. It it was, the world would be a much much better place. But it's not. It's imperfect.

So, playing tennis isn't fair either. About 75 percent of children who play ranking tournaments are overage. It's a fact. All 16-17 year olds play tournaments meant for children and players under the age of 14. I mean, who are you kidding,people? What are you even getting by lying about your age? Just so that you can play more tournaments? It's amazing to see how children, and their parents are ready to stoop to a level so low. If you don't think you can play with children your age and you need to get your age in written records decreased, it's just sad,my friend. If you're really serious about tennis and have an undying passion for it, don't cheat, man. It's not cool. Give it your best, and if your best isn't enough, train. Train some more. Get better, then try. Cheating has never taken anyone anywhere.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I'VE WRITTEN THIS. IT'S SUCH BAD WRITING. I'M GOING TO POST IT ANYWAY. 

Because I have my Hindi exam day after and I am bored.

These are 10 random facts, which are a result of acute boredom. I just had nothing better to do. These are very very very random, and also very very very true.

Here goes nothing

1. I like bland food. Yes, I'm Punjabi. Yes, I live in the land of tandoori tikka and rogan josh, but I still like bland food. Guilt as charged. Give me boiled chicken with mashed potatoes and I will love you for the rest of my life.

2. I absolutely loathe Holi. Why? Because it is gross. It gives you dirty hair, pink teeth, a blue face and yellow arms. There was a time I used to look forward to Holi the entire year, and then people started playing Holi with everything except colours. Eggs. Mud. Grease.

3. I hate Maggi. It's yellow, slimy, and looks weird. Enough said.

4. I cannot, like CANNOT brush without the tap running. It's something I've always done. Hehehe. (PS- You can kill me for that,yeah,really)

5. I have a thing for black and white photographs. I will love anyone who gets a portfolio in black and white. Yeah. (Future husband, are you listening?)

6. I'm a feminist. A proud one, that is. And I don't think 'women dressing like sluts', or women going around the city 'after 8 pm' cause rapes; Rapists do. And and and, I HATE MALE CHAUVINISTS.

7. I don't like anyone touching my hair, my face,or my phone. It's just uncool. I' m not the touchy-feely types. It just pisses the hell out of me when someone touches my hair/phone/face, is it that difficult not to touch?

9. I cannot take a shower when the water is cold, even when its 45 degree Celsius outside. It's just too cold for me.

10. Also, I can't sleep without a blanket. I will switch on the AC, but I will never sleep without a blanket.

Never seen-THIRTEEEEEEN

As I look back, I finally realize I've grown as a person. I've left parts of me behind. I've become a lot less judgmental in the past year. I've started appreciating the good things in life and I've started counting my blessings. This time, last year things were bloody different. I was close to so many people I'm not even in touch now, and trust me, it feels so weird. I'm not saying that it was all their fault, because it was not. I just don't know what happened..we drifted apart. There was nothing much I could do to help it, either. The good part, however, is that I came to know who are the people who've been true to me, not only on my face, but also behind my back. Let's get real, people, everybody is bitched about, no matter what you do, you will be judged, but you know what? It's entirely your choice how you take it, you either let the people bring you down or, you just don't care and smile and live life like everything is perfect. I chose the latter, I did. What is the point in being sad about comments made by people who don't even matter? Whatever mistakes I made in the past, I regret nothing. Absolutely nothing. They helped me grow. I've realized it's okay to be weak sometimes. It's okay to cry. It's okay to be low. But, in the process, we must not forget how to be happy. We must not forget there's much more to life than one person. We must cherish I chose to be happy with the people around me. I chose to stop finding faults. I chose to love. I chose to smile. I chose to live.

Here is to new beginnings,

to happiness,

to love,

Here's to twelve beautiful trips around the sun

Here's to my thirteenth trip.

Happy thirteenth to me :D

Back to life

Today I saw this girl. She must have been around 7 years old. She wore a pink GAP sweatshirt and jeans, her beautiful hair tidily tied up in a ponytail. Her high-cheekbones, fair colour complimented her. Her eyes shone so brightly, they screamed innocence. I couldn't help but smile at her. Thousand dreams were reflected in her glistening eyes. Hundred aspirations. She was so full of life. She played around the store, picking up the footballs and tapping them, and calling out for her mother who was shopping somewhere around. She looked happy, but more importantly, she looked content. She was happy with what she had, unlike most of us, obviously. She wasn't inquisitive like I am. She knew all the answers she needed to know. That girl loved colors, I could see. I could see how she would get fascinated by the smallest things. That girl didn't care what people thought of her. She paid no heed to what she heard because she was so busy in her own little world. She was very unlike me. I have always been an inquisitive child, always wanting to know more, sometimes, even more than I needed to. If someone wouldn't tell me something, I'd somehow manage to dig out what I wanted to know. I was never ever in my life content with what I knew. The hunger to know more and more kept increasing day by day. My eyes reflected only the need to know more and more, and a little more.

But maybe, those inquisitive eyes DID reflect dreams, hopes, and aspirations. Maybe, just maybe, everybody, along with me, failed to see it then.

But then, today I did. I realized something I should have realized quite some time back.

..somewhere deep down, in those eyes of that little girl, I saw me. I saw the girl who loved to dream, and believe. I saw the girl who was content, but somewhere I knew, that little girl in me had died.

And, I'm trying to bring her back. Bring her back to life.

"..you're the same person who kept me sane all along"

Here we are, sitting in the soothing winter sun, trying to figure out our respective lives, and for a change, I like the sound of silence. It is the most comfortable silence of my life. Suddenly, you say, I've changed. You say that my sense of humor has changed, my way of perceiving things has changed. You say my hairstyle has changed, my scent is unfamiliar to you. You say I've lost my twinkling eyes, which have been replaced by dull, normal eyes. You say I don't wear my eyeliner like I did earlier, or how my style of dressing has changed completely. You say I've turned into a laid-back, carefree and lazy person.

But you know what? You haven't changed a bit. You're still beaming. The color in your cheeks is still pink. The twinkle in your eyes still remains. You're wearing the same genuine smile. You're the same person who's scent I loved. Your hair are still the same. Messy, yet, adorable. You're the same person who picked me up when I fell in class, after making fun of me and laughing your lungs out for 5 minutes straight. You're the same person who forgave me for every silly mistake that I made, and even the horrid ones.You're the same person who didn't walk out on me even when you thought you should. You're the same person with whom I plan my career and laugh at how you're so confused between Commerce and Humanities. You're the same person with whom I share a million insiders which just multiply as days pass by. You're the same person with whom I know I will laugh my wits out even when I'm low.You're the same person who taught me how to chase my dreams, and catch them, too. You're the same person who comforted me when I was upset. You're the same person who was there for me when I wasn't in a state to be there for myself. You're the same person who held my hand, hugged me tight and went through every stage of life with me and never complained once. You're the same person with whom I share all the technicolored memories. All of them. I'm not exaggerating. Most of my friends know who I am, my fears, my doubts, my strengths, my weaknesses, but do you know the difference between them and you- they just know, but you know WHY. That's what makes you different.

And special. I love you.

100 truths

1. Last beverage- Coke

2. Last phone call - Dad

3. Last text message- Geetika Rai

4. Last song you listened to- Professing my love-Karl Wolf

5. Last time you cried- Err, don't remember

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:

1. Dated someone twice- No

2. Been cheated on?- No

3. Kissed someone & regretted it?- No

4. Lost someone special?- Yes. She's an angel now. Miss you, Ipshita

5. Been depressed?- Yeah.

6. Been drunk and threw up? - No.

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:

1. Black

2.Pink

3.Purple

4.Blue

5. Yellow

HAVE YOU:

1. Made new friends - Yeah.

2. Fallen out of love- Err, haven't fallen in love, yet:P

3. Laughed until you cried- Yeah. All the time :')

4. Met someone who changed you- Yeah.

5. Found out who your true friends were- Yeah I did.

6. Found out someone was talking about you- Yes. And then stopped talking.

7. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list- Nope.

8. How many people on your Facebook friends list do you know in real life- most of them.

9. How many kids do you want to have- I hate kids.

10. Do you have any pets- No.

11. Do you want to change your name- Never.

12. What did you do for your last birthday- Called a few friends over.

13. What time did you wake up today- 10 pm

14. What were you doing at midnight last night- Coming back from a dinner I'd gone to.

15. Name something you CANNOT wait for- Tennis practice at 7.30 am tomorrow. (not really :P)

17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life- Life might not be perfect, but it's beautiful

18. What are you listening to right now- Nothing

19. Most visited webpage- Facebook and Blogger.

1. What's your name- Aastha

2. Nicknames- None

3. Relationship Status- Single

4. Zodiac sign- Aquarius.

5. Male or female or transgendered- Female

6. Elementary- Sacred Heart Senior Secondary School, Chandigarh

7. Middle School- Sacred Heart Senior Secondary School, Chandigarh

8. High school- Sacred Heart Senior Secondary School, Chandigarh

10. Hair color - Black.

11. Long or short- A little beneath the shoulders.

16. Height-A little more than 5'6"

17. Do you have a crush on someone?- Nope

18: What do you like about yourself?- Er, that I can make others happy. Lol :P

19. Piercings- Yeah.

20. Tattoos- Want one!

21. Righty or lefty- Righty

FIRSTS :

22. First surgery- Never had one

23. First piercing- When I was, erm, 3?

24. First best friends- Sara

26. First sport you joined- Tennis

27. First pet- golfishh!

28. First vacation- Dont remember

29. First concert- None

30. First crush- Lol, i don't know

RIGHT NOW:

49. Eatingg- Nothing

50. Drinking- Water

52. I'm about to- Sleep

53. Listening to- Nothing

55. Waiting for- Lol, nothing :P

YOUR FUTURE :

58. Want kids? Don't know

59. Want to get married? Maybe

60. Careers in mind? Law, probably.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

68. Lips or eyes- Eyes.

69. Hugs or kisses- Hugs.

70. Shorter or taller- Taller.

71. Older or Younger- Older.

72. Romantic or spontaneous- Romantic.

73. Nice stomach or nice arms- Nice stomach.

74. Sensitive or loud- Neither

75. Hook-up or relationship- Relationship.

77. Trouble maker or hesitant- Trouble maker.

HAVE YOU EVER :

78. Kissed a stranger- Nope!

80. Lost glasses/contacts- Never

81. Sex on first date- Nope.

82. Broken someone's heart- Not that I know of.

83. Had your own heart broken- Not really.

85. Been arrested- Nope.

86. Turned someone down- Yeah.

87. Cried when someone died- Yup

88. Liked a friend that is a girl?- Nope. (UGH)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself- Totally

90. Miracles- Yes.

91. Love at first sight-Nope

92. Heaven- no

93. Santa Clause- NO -.-

95. Kiss on the first date?- Err, no.

96. Angels- Oh yes, they're rrrright beside me.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - Yes.

98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? - No

100. Posting this as 100 Truths?- Yup.

The things that make you appreciate life

There's always one thing you love more than anything else. That one thing you love more than life. You know what I love most on this planet? Tennis. The game of tennis is so beautiful. It makes me feel alive, it makes me feel at peace. No, I'm not lying. Whenever I'm low, a light hitting session does the trick. ALWAYS. The adrenaline rush. The excitement. The sense of satisfaction. The feeling of knowing that I'm at least good at something-priceless. Sometimes, I do crib about going for practice in the extreme cold/heat, but when I'm on court, everything vanishes. Gone. All the troubles, all the worrying, the stress, the tension, all of it just goes away, magically. I get magically transferred to a new world. Oh, I love that feeling :')

I have always loved tennis. And shall continue to.

Even when..

I knew I could give my best, but didn't.

I desperately wanted to give my best, but couldn't.

I was made to do 5 extra sprints.

I was shouted at for my laid-back attitude.

I got blisters.

I was forced not to have long nails.

I complained about the heat/cold and cramps

I had to stay till late for practice.

I had to wait for 8 hours for my match.

I had to play a match at 1 AM, 2 AM, 4AM, and report at 6AM.

I injured my wrist(minor injury) and my ankle (major injury)

I was advised by the doctor not to practice for one week, but I still did.

I had to practice at 7.30 AM on Sundays while all my friends were sleeping

I had to cancel my plans with friends/family only because I couldn't miss my practice session.

I have to change my tennis shoes every month (that's a good point, actually. Shopping excites me:P)

I have tanlines on my ankles, feet, arms, legs.

I threw my racket out of disgust and manged never to break it

I swelled with pride each time I won a match and went into a shell after I lost one.

I saw the pain in the eyes of my teammates when I lost a match.

I was down in the first set, but still managed to win the match.

I disappointed everybody by losing an easy match.

I've loved tennis even when all I was asked about at family gatherings was, "How's tennis going?"

I have loved each and every bit of that game. It is THE BEST thing that could ever happen to mankind. I can go on and on writing about why and how much I love tennis. It is and always will be my first and foremost love. No matter what the world says, I have undying love for this beautiful game. . .true story.

Tennis is special for me.

It always has been.

And always will be.

:')