As I look closer, I see my mother sway.
With flawless skin and perfect hair, I see her looking at me,
She has a crazy look in her eyes as she continues staring at me.
Looking at her gleaming eyes, I’m awe struck.
I forget all she did to me, how she screwed up my fate and luck.
When I was tiny and fragile, she left me crying,
Slowly I was dying.
What she did to me no mother ever would,
What she did to me no mother ever could.
She walks towards me and I hear the familiar footsteps,
All what she did to me is slowly coming back, how she wasn’t there when I first smiled, how she wasn’t there to wipe the tears I wept.
How she wasn’t there when I needed her the most,
How I never had a mother about whom I could boast.
Without any reason, she left, and I hoped and prayed and wished she would come back,
But…she didn’t, because maybe feelings of love she lacked.
All my life I spent cursing and hating her;
Wishing her to be near.
She had chosen a different path, after all
From the edge where she put me, she had let me fall.
When I finally met the mother who made my life hell, I froze with fear
Whatever excuses she made for leaving I forced myself not to hear.
I couldn’t speak, hear or sense,
All my life, I had seen her from behind a blurry lens.
I couldn’t believe she was no supernatural power, but actually a mortal being,
I couldn’t believe with my own two eyes I was seeing.
But what she did to me was beyond the pale
She turned her back on my and pretended not to hear me wail
So, I do the same,
And let her rot with shame.
I force myself to forget the bond we shared, to forget the mother daughter we ever were,
..And I close my eyes as tight as they can go, I let the tears drip and I walk out on her.
Also, this is my 40th post. Cheers to me! :D
Seems like yesterday when I started this blog. Time flieeeees.
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