Let me think aloud today, let me speak the words I have always been afraid to say. Let me ponder over how beautiful we are together and so incomplete apart. Give me a chance to look back on all that we have been through, allow my lips to gently curl. Let a shiny layer of moisture trickle down my cheeks today. Please, just let me be free.
Let me feel every emotion, and experience every kind of pain you left me with. How you were everything I've ever wanted, and how you were exactly my type. You were perfect, in every bloody sense of the word. You liked theatre, poetry, art, books and my type of music. You were all the things I dreamt of having in my lover, you checked all the boxes. You were like the poetry I was afraid to share with the world, or the song I never wanted anyone to hear. You were mine to keep, and mine to cherish. Forever, forever and forever.
Your black fully rimmed specs fit perfectly on your face and your slightly curly hair was so soft, and I knew you loved it when I caressed it. Your eyes were big and brown with lashes probably longer than mine. It felt like they had universes trapped inside them. Your nose was so perfectly proportionate, it almost made me smile whenever I looked at your face. I loved how my fingers danced on your long slender neck when you kissed me with the softest lips I've ever kissed. How you kissed me so gently, yet so passionately, and then looked at me like I was the most beautiful being you'd ever seen. Then, you brushed away my hair from my eyes only to kiss me again. I felt a lot of emotions at that very moment, the most overpowering one being love. I felt love. Immense, immense love. And I never could recognise what else I felt.
Everything was overwhelming. In a good way, or not, I do not know, but it felt nice. It also felt strange, but nice, mostly. It felt serene, it felt pure. It was something I always wanted to remember, but somehow, it faded away. Slowly, slowly, you faded away.
So, today, let me remember how perfect we were and then help me forget.
Only to remember again.
Let me feel every emotion, and experience every kind of pain you left me with. How you were everything I've ever wanted, and how you were exactly my type. You were perfect, in every bloody sense of the word. You liked theatre, poetry, art, books and my type of music. You were all the things I dreamt of having in my lover, you checked all the boxes. You were like the poetry I was afraid to share with the world, or the song I never wanted anyone to hear. You were mine to keep, and mine to cherish. Forever, forever and forever.
Your black fully rimmed specs fit perfectly on your face and your slightly curly hair was so soft, and I knew you loved it when I caressed it. Your eyes were big and brown with lashes probably longer than mine. It felt like they had universes trapped inside them. Your nose was so perfectly proportionate, it almost made me smile whenever I looked at your face. I loved how my fingers danced on your long slender neck when you kissed me with the softest lips I've ever kissed. How you kissed me so gently, yet so passionately, and then looked at me like I was the most beautiful being you'd ever seen. Then, you brushed away my hair from my eyes only to kiss me again. I felt a lot of emotions at that very moment, the most overpowering one being love. I felt love. Immense, immense love. And I never could recognise what else I felt.
Everything was overwhelming. In a good way, or not, I do not know, but it felt nice. It also felt strange, but nice, mostly. It felt serene, it felt pure. It was something I always wanted to remember, but somehow, it faded away. Slowly, slowly, you faded away.
So, today, let me remember how perfect we were and then help me forget.
Only to remember again.
Ah, that was so beautifully written. :)
ReplyDeleteWhy, thank you. :)
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