Day 74

Day 74

Hello, friends and foes. I haven’t logged into this blog since 2013. That’s 4 years. More like 40 in teenage years. But i’m taking class 12 board exams now, starting tomorrow and I really, really want to document the whirlwind of emotions I will feel over these couple of weeks. 74 days to be exact. I’m starting this journal entry backwards from Day 74 and will go on till Day 1. I will then see if I can (and want to) continue. I’m also choosing this blog and not my new one because nobody significant really reads this anymore. I can be inarticulate here and it won’t make a difference OKAY.

SO. A lot has happened since I last wrote here. I got a new blog on Wordpress because that’s what the Cool Kids were doing. I got a Twitter account, a Tumblr account and my blogging shifted to more of photo blogging and I stopped…writing as often. But I do like to believe that my writing has gotten better. I’ve been published in a few anthologies, some of my poems have been published, I’ve been a part of an online publication as their editor, and a print magazine. I was also invited to attend a Literature Festival in Udaipur, which was quite cool. (I didn’t go) But I haven’t been…consistent. And that’s true about most things.

I gave up playing tennis in 10th. I wrote a whole post about it. I quite miss it, actually. I want to start playing again after I’m done with 12th. Maybe not competitively initially, but recreationally for sure. 

Then I got into public speaking and MUNs, then debates and now I’m not into anything. Maybe it’s because I’m already juggling a lot of things but whatever. 

I also went to summer school. I became Head Girl. I quit as Director General of the MUN and hosted a TEDx event instead. It was quite fulfilling, actually. I’m still as driven and ambitious as ever and am trying to channelise my energy into different areas. 

I also got a new bunch of friends towards the end of 12th. A lot of them I knew but never though would be my friends. I also think I have a crush on one of them, but I don’t know for sure. It’s not something I want to pursue, no matter how much I’d like to. The timing is all wrong. Meh. Bummer. 

I also have a close knit group of friends now but I don’t think I relate to most of them now. That’s a scary thought but 3 of them are in love so I mean. I don’t know. They’re different. But I guess that’s just how I’ve always been. I can’t consistently like and love people. I have waves of love and admiration and apathy and disgust. These phases pass. Much like everything else. 

Anyway, tomorrow is my first board exam and I’m chilling and watching a little Dexter. I really, really, enjoy it. I used to watch it regularly back in 2010ish and have recently gotten back into it. Coming back to familiarity, eh. I also spoke to my friend Samarth, whom I love very much. He also sent me really amazing English notes. He’s really nice. I wish I saw more of him, though. He stays in Bombay and I’ve met him all of two times last year. 

I’m quite excited to start blogging again. It’s like daily vlogging, which is the New Cool Thing. I love watching daily vlogs but I find myself getting way too involved so I’d rather just stick to my own stuff. Ever since I gave up 90% of my social media, I started watching a lot of YouTube. I also got into makeup. I really enjoy it but don’t wear it as often. It’s fun, and it does good for my controlling self. Also, I have a lot of free time. 

The reason you will be seeing this on what is actually Day 73 is because I don;t remember the password to my Blogger account so I’m going to try and retrieve it after my exam. I just can’t be bothered anymore. If you’re still reading, I will see you tomorrow with more on my extremely unhealthy eating and a little more rambling. Buh-bye.